Mama

Mama,
Those times you were always pushing me to do things that I felt uncomfortable with.
Those times you were always telling me of not to take care of my image all the time.
Those times you were always telling me not to sacrifice for others sometimes.

Mama,
Those times I didn't realize what were you trying to do to me.
Those times I always thought that your ways are wrong.
Those times I always object of what you told me to do.

But Mama,
Now I need you to do all those things you used to do.
Now I understand what it meant for me.
Now I know how to push myself forward.

Mama,
All this time, you were trying to tell me to be stronger.
All this time, you were supporting me whenever I'm down.
All this time, you knew ways to make me succeed.

Although sometimes the ways you told me don't fit my conscience,
But now, I understand why.
That is to make me to become a much better person than before.
You knew how weak I was, 
yet you try to tell me 
to fight for my own dreams;
to fight back the things that put me down;
to stand on my own feet.

 

Simple Words

"No matter how bad a person is, they would always want to be remembered as a good person." Simple words but yet reminded me. I would always wonder, why do I tend to forget my problems? Why do I act this way? What was the cause for all of this? The answer was in those simple words. No matter how bad a person would hurt me, in the end I would remember their good deeds toward me. Why? Because of them, I should be grateful. Without them, I would have never mature and would be stuck in my childish behavior. There are also another reason, people would say that, people tends to remember other people's bad deeds instead of the good deeds. Somehow, I realized that it was true. Therefore, I would like to reverse this proposition. How would it be like if we remember good deeds instead of bad deeds? Besides, bad deeds are only done a few times, while good deeds are done much more. However, people wouldn't realized those things. 

"Problems are not meant to be forgotten, but yet to be solved". Another simple words that remind me. It's not that I would directly forget all my problems without having them solved. It would make me as a total coward. I always try to confront all of my problems, so that in the end I wouldn't be curious of how things goes in the future. Then why do I forgot them? Piling up your memories with your problems, would only brings you pain of the past. What's the use of remembering it, if you already try to solve it as hard as you can. Of course, solving doesn't always mean that in the end it would lead you to the way of how you want it to be. Solving means, it could also go the opposite way of how you want it to be, as long it is for the better goods. That's why, no need to remember it right? And of course, by remembering it, it would bring up revenge and hatred towards the other parties, which I think is a great waste bothering yourself with those kind of things. You only live once, so either you live your life to the fullest with no regrets or you live your life badly with full of bad emotions. 

All of the problems I face, surely created the mature side of me. No matter how hard I try to reach my goals, there are limits such as respecting other people. Some of the people would object these limits when I said "live your life to the fullest". Well,it's true. It varies among people. But for me, hurting others are not a part of reaching my goals. My aim is to reach my hopes by considering others, so that it will become your individual success. It's not about individuality, it's about togetherness. The feeling of reaching something, without your selfishness has its own essence of pride.

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Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too tired

Too tired of 

Hoping for something that will never come

Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too confused

Too confused of

The reasons I should cry for

Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too disappointed

Too disappointed 

At myself

Everyone thought I was strong,

But I was weak

Everyone thought I was firm,

But I was vulnerable

Everyone thought it was wrong,

But I think it was right

That moment

When you try to hold on

But you can't

No Regret

They told me to run from him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me not to trust him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me things about him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me not to love him,
I completely wouldn't listen.

After he let me go,
They told me I was a fool.

After he let me go,
I couldn't run.

After he let me go,
I couldn't try.

After he let me go,
I still wouldn't listen.

They may call me a fool,
but they never know.

How this heart have no regrets.
The beautiful feeling, I may no longer have
But will always do treasure it.