Despicable Me

I think I've changed a lot
I don't know whether I've changed to someone better or not
But I do miss the moment where I could smile freely
Without anything to burden my smile

I became someone who ignores my surrounding
Solitary has been the path I choose to walk
It's the only thing that comforts me
Or that's the thing that I think will comfort me

I chose not to adapt that fast with others
I don't know why
But everywhere I go
I seemed not to fit in

I made myself busy
Escaping flashbacks that will hurt me again
But no matter how busy I am
I kept on remembering those remnants

I've changed a lot
It's even hard for me to focus on my studies
Although I try to keep my promise
Nothing will come interfere my studies

I smile to everyone, I do
But its not the smile I use to give
Maybe no one would realize
Cause I made it so

I'm used to it
Holding back tears onto my eyes
Looking up to the sky
So that it won't fall

What should I do?
I am an expert now
But it hurts really bad right now
I can't stand it

I am such a fool
I look so desperate
I hate this look of mine
I know what I want
But it's impossible to have 

Rindu

Kerinduan selalu mengiringi diriku

Dalam kehampaan, khayalku melanglang buana

Tiada henti kehadirannya selalu menghampiri

Tak disadari, kerinduan ini melelapkan diriku

Ku terbangun, berharap rindu itu menghilang

Aah, ternyata bukan mimpi

Rasa sakit ini masih menyapa hati

Kenangan yang terus hadir dalam angan

Penawar rindu tak kunjung hadir

Dalam diam, teriakan itu terdengar jelas

Apa daya, uluran tangan tak terlihat

Kelemahan yang tak mampu ku tunjukkan.

The Eternal Chocolate Mousse Royal Ice Cream

Everybody loves ice cream.Tasty, cold, and delicious are the reason why people loves ice cream. Ice cream, a snack that will be finished quickly. But nevertheless, there's this one ice cream that made you feel it's taking forever to be finished. It is the chocolate mousse royal ice cream of a popular worldwide brand. One of the most delicious ice cream in the world.

Buying that ice cream was already planned, since before she arrives that place. She was very happy because she had been craving for that ice cream since a week ago and finally she has a reason to go to that shop and buy ice cream. The reason that changes her happy mood into a total disappointment mood.

The moment she arrives at the shop, suddenly there was a change of plan. She had anticipated this kind of situation, she had knew, and she was ready. But yet when it happened, she still felt that stinging pain, punching her heart. That very moment, she couldn't move and try to calm herself down. Extreme disappointment in which she already knew that it was going to happen. But still, she remained calm. She didn't blame anyone but herself. She told herself that it can't be helped.

She decided to buy the ice cream that she had been craving for, since she was already at the shop. She looks to every flavor that was provided by the shop, but yet Chocolate Mousse Royal was the one she could focus on. Not because it was the most eye catching, but because her mind was messed up and all she could think of is just to buy the ice cream.

Why did she buy the ice cream? Was it because she was craving it since a week ago? At first, it was that; before her heart stings her. She just had to buy the ice cream. The ice cream that she thinks will calm her heart through its coldness. The ice cream that used to cool her down whenever she's in pain. But not this time, this time the ice cream trick didn't work.

After she had bought the ice cream, she gulped spoon by spoon in a very slow movement. She was striving really hard so that tears won't fall from her eyes, striving so that she won't blame anyone, striving so that she can take it sincerely. Suddenly she paused after couple of bites, her mind wanders, asking God whether her future would be really happy since she had to suffer this kind of pain again and again. She asked God, what she had done wrong to be given this kind of punishment. She couldn't hold the pain. The ice cream couldn't help her cool down her mind.

She continued biting bit by bit of her ice cream, it still couldn't help her. All she wanted to do was to go home. She couldn't take it anymore. She was hurt real bad. Her pride had gone really far below. However, the ice cream seemed to be there forever. The more she bites, the more she couldn't finish it. It seems as if it was an eternal ice cream. She was struggling alone fighting her emotions. She was keeping herself from falling deeper. But then as soon as someone sees her, she hid everything. She smiled as wide as she can, so that it looks convincing as if nothing happens. No one noticed what had happened to her. She was enduring her pain, enduring her pride being pushed too low, enduring every single thing that kills her. However, she still thinks that it was part of her fault. She can not blame anyone.

Irrational Selfish Quote

"I'd to leave you because I love you". People said that you need to experience things to understand things. Yet, this quote bothers my mind. It may be implemented in special situation such as leaving because of death. But leaving because of other things? Somehow it feels too cliche for me.

It just doesn't feel right, leaving someone because of loving them. Too selfish, ignorant, and indecisive are just the right characters to be inserted although those people are known as the kindest in the world. Love that is being responded to each other, are meant to be together. Why do you need to leave, if the person you love are happy with you, no matter what consequences are there for them? No need to leave them, because they already knew what obstacles might be there for them if they are with you.

Selfish I say, because they never see that the ones that are being left behind are the most hurt-ed side. Why? Not because it's a heartbreaking moment, but it's because they don't know and they don't understand why they must be left behind? What fault had they done? Because it's just too irrational. They are the most hurt-ed side because they have to keep on holding to those feelings that left them clueless. Heartbreaking is a just temporary pain, but longing becomes eternal, though they knew, that their love ones will never come.

So why do people need to leave the ones they love because they love them?
I'm just saying, if you are committed to build a relationship, then you must strive everything even though it gonna costs your partner some hardships. But hardships always will come, no matter who the couples are, because you are trying to build a story of two person in one situation, not just some random individual trying to get along with their surroundings. It's a total different thing. I remember a friend of mine told me, "in a relationship, there are no more, I or You, but there's only we." So in a relationship being ready just comes with the flow. All you need is a commitment to strive it together. Because with commitment, you just have to stand up for yourself and know that you have accepted all the weaknesses of yourself and your partner.

So couples out there, stop thinking you have to leave your partner because you're not good for them. Because if they already accepted you for whatever you are, it means they are very happy being with you. For if you leave them, it's just the same thing you're making them unhappy.

That's just my point of view, to answer people's love problem. After analyzing some of my friend's problem, I decided to make this conclusion of mine. I hope some people will understand what I'm trying to say.

What's the use?

Thank you, those words of yours still lingers on my ear.
It's as if those words are now haunting me.
Reminds me of every pain that had suffered me.

"It's okay not to be okay"

When those words haunts me, I end up being vulnerable again.
It seems like those words are the words I need.
However, those words ripped the heart.

I must be fine.
I must be strong.
I must , I really must.

What's the use of being vulnerable?
When in the end, it's only you that being hurt?
Only yourself that understand your own pain.

What's the use?
In the end, the one who sees you, pities you.
Mocks you for being a fake.

You

That moment, when you turn away,
I had to grab you.
I had to hold you.
I had to touch you.

I know that you won't dislike it,
I know that your heart craves for it
I know that you won't resist it
I know that we want it.

The gaze of your eyes,
made me reaching out for you.
The looks of your expression,
made my eyes unable to blink.
The softness of your lips,
made me want you more.

I just had to have you,
I just had to need you,
Everything of you,
I want it.

That moment when you turn away,
I just had to stop it.
I can't resist it.
I can't let that chance slip.

The best chance for my life.

Selfish Human Being

God, I wonder if I'm being too selfish with You.
I kept demanding a lot of things from You, but yet I can't give back anything in return.
One by one, You answered my prayers, and yet I kept asking for more.
Sometimes, I would forget You, sometimes, I am not grateful to You.
I am truly sorry God.

My heart kept asking things to make myself happy.
My brain kept telling me to ask things that makes me smile.
But however, these conscience of mine feels so selfish whenever I ask Thee. 
Because I constantly kept asking things. 

I tried my best to be with You. 
For if I forgot you, I become completely clueless.
My mind will not be at peace.
I become someone who is too sensitive in everything.

Ya Allah, Ya Rabbi.
Forgive me, please guide me to be a better person than before.
A person, who will always remembers You.
A person with a character that You like.
Make me a grateful person,
Don't let me be astray

Keep on watching over me, ya Allah.
Remind me if I do things that You hate.
Only to You, I ask things. 
Only to Your guidance, I follow.

The Eyes of Life

Those eyes are no longer mesmerizing;
The eyes that were once filled the heart.
Those eyes are now empty;
The eyes that were once captured the attention.

That time, those eyes were shining brightly
But now, it only shows wanders,
Who knows what its wanders are.
No one could notice.

Expression convinced the world.
but the eyes couldn't lie.
No covers could hide it
The eyes that just wanders.

Don't Love Me

Don't love me although I am thankful for it;
I don't want to bring you along to my sorrow
I don't want you to pity me
I don't want you to be burden by me

Don't love me;
Because I know how it feels like to lose someone
I know how it feels like to miss someone until your heart hurts
I know how it feels like being tired of crying but you can't stop
I know how it feels like to keep on hoping when you know it won't happen.

Don't love me;
Because I don't want to fall anymore
I don't want to be hurt anymore
I don't want anymore broken promises
I don't want to feel the same thing again

Don't love me, because I think I can't bear anymore pain.
Because I don't want to expect things that would disappoint me. 
Because I know I would always give you the world. 

Sorry for letting you down

Hey Mama,

Seriously I don't know how to put it in words anymore. For the first time in my life, I blog with a clear obvious subjects. Usually, keeping myself busy would made me forget the things that hurt me. But since the day that you were gone until now, I still could feel how it hurts so much to miss you. I try to talked it out with Papa, but you know him, he's too vulnerable for me to say things about you. In the end, I have to act strong in front of him so that he would stop feeling sad. I try to talk to my first sister, but then on a second thought, it'll hurt her again, because she was about to see you, then you passed away before she sees you. The last option was my second sister. We tried to talk things out to each other. We support each other, we strengthen each other, and we also pretend to each other about how strong we are.We knew that, but then she stated that the toughest one must've been me after you were gone.

I didn't understand her words before, but day by days I began to understand. Throughout my whole life, you were my mom and my best friend. Everything that I do or everywhere I go, you would always be there for me. Every time I was happy, you would always support me. Every time someone pushes me, you would always stand up for me. Every time I was sad, you would always know ways to comfort me. I still remember when you said that I always had to accompany you till the day you died. I know, I was the closest to you. But I didn't realize it will be this fast.

Every time I got sad, I would always make myself busy mom. You know that best. But this time Mom, I failed. Unconsciously, I feel sad and that feeling keeps on getting stronger. Yet Mom, I try to hold it in. When those tears were about to burst, I kept it in. I don't want them to see it. It goes on every day.  Everything that I do, seems so empty Mom. You were always my best listener. 

People said I am not alone, I have a lot of people to care for me. I know that mom, however, even if I'm standing in a happy crowd, somehow I can't seem to lighten up, I know how to pretend like one, but I feel as if I'm in the dark corner, crying out for help, but no one could.

I've become someone that is a fake mom, I'm sorry. I kept on giving motivation to others, giving spirits to other, but I can't even do that to myself. I kept saying that I'm tired of crying which I am, but yet I can't stop Mom. I'm also a fake Mom, I said I didn't need any help, but somehow I do. Remember when you said that sometimes I have to let go of my pride a bit, for the sake of myself. I tried to do that, but I can't mom. I don't even know how to ask for help. Not that I don't want to, but what's the use mom? and to whom? 

I've become someone who is envious of others mom. I envy how people could still happily be together with their moms, being angered by their mom, being brought lunch by their mom, most of all seeing their mom's proudest smile. I'm sorry mom. I am truly sorry. I am still trying to adapt Mom. 

Silently I cried. Loudly I cried. Smashing myself I had. Yet, I still feel all alone. Nothing could help me.  What is wrong with me Mom? What do I have to do? I prayed for you. I dreamed about you. But it's still not good enough.

I feel like loneliness is following me Mom. I try to cheer up, but then that feeling comes again. There's no day without those feeling. And the only thing I could do is talking with you on my mind, but then I feel more sad. Tears were about to burst, but I had to hold it in. Everyday.

Think

Leaving?
Oh you may.
Why the stare?
I won't beg you to stay.

You seem confused.
Still being indecisive? 
I won't tell you the answer.
You decide alone.

Regret your decision?
Oh, I'm truly sorry.
But I won't stand in your way.
I will be gone. 

Trust?
It's long gone since that decision.
Your words are nothing but lies.
Lies that are made because of situation. 

Me vulnerable?
Go think what you want.
But I'm not letting you to help me.
For I don't need your act, but sincerity.

Silence is better, than to judge you. 
Kindness was given, yet a stab was received.
Keep on running and searching for your answers,
keep on hiding, but you just can't escape it. 

For memories are haunting. 
In regrets, you'll remain.
When the search starts,
nowhere you will find. 

The best of the best was taken for granted.

 

Unfinished Thoughts

Shouting, running, or crying till my heart's content would not change anything. Useless.
The more I want to forget, the more I remembered. I went deeper in my thoughts.
Trying to fly high, but I always fall. I am useless.
Grasping every power, till the last of what I had, is what everyone tells me to do. 

Smiling to maintain the moment, the heart shredded to pain. 
Pretending to be strong, but knowing the weakness inside.
Nights and days became so long.
Everything becomes dull.

Music without its soul.
Poetry without its wisdom.
Science without its acknowledge. 
Life without its spirit. 

Here I am, without you, has lost everything. 
Feelings have become numb.
I am clueless and lost.

Desperately needed someone to comfort me, but here I am.
In the position where everyone tells me to be patience;
to be tough; to be strong; to be something I have to try hard.
At least, one long cry would be nice. Aah, but I'm not allowed, am I?

Here I am, waiting for someone that you said will be there for me.
But I've become hopeless since you're gone.
They all left, no one stayed. The ones that I'd showed that I care.
Including you, but you didn't leave me. You were forced to leave, different than them.
But it still hurts, everyone left me, but they left with leaving behind pain for me.

Aah yes, I'm too kind for accepting those pain that is why they deliberately do that. 
Aah yes, they want me to be strong.
Aah yes, they said I'm independent.
Those reasons. Those weakness are mine.

What if, I don't want to be strong. 
What if, I don't want to be independent.
What if, I don't want to be hurt.
What if, I need a shoulder to cry on and a helping hand?

I want to share all the thoughts in my mind, but I can't.
I want to share all these burdens, but I can't.
Who would want to be shared of those things?
They'll just leave you again like before.
So selfish of me, never consider others. 

Ignorant and passive, someone said to me.
"You're ignorant and passive, that's why everyone left you."
Painful to hear, but one person knows I'm not, that is you.
However you were forced to leave me, for your happiness.
I'm happy for that, because I know this world only hurts you more.

But, I just miss you. And the one that understands me the most is you, my beautiful mother.
Now, I am forever alone here. I'm crying out for help from this loneliness but no one seems to care. ................................ 

Perubahan Waktu

Tiada yang tahu kapan perasaan dalam hati akan berubah, walaupun itu perasaan dirimu sendiri. Satu detik pun sangat berharga jika ditanyakan tentang perasaan dalam hati. Mungkin yang lain menilai bahwa mulut dan hati tidak bisa bekerjasama, tapi bagaimana kalau sesungguhnya keduanya bekerjasama. Pada saat itu, hati memang sedang tidak menghiraukan perasaan. Sehingga mulut berkata seperti itu. Tapi kemudian, perasaan berubah. Namun yang terucap tak bisa ditarik kembali, bukan karena tak mau berkompromi tapi karena adanya "social value". 

Entah kenapa perasaan ini terus berubah. Pertanyaan yang dilontarkan tersebut terus terngiang, "emang kamu tidak sakit hati?". Jawaban yang diberikan, "tidak, saya tidak akan sakit hati dan tidak akan pernah karena memang tidak seharusnya. Saya hanya sedikit kecewa, awalnya saya tidak suka dengannya, cuma dengan kegigihannya, saya pun mengusahakan untuk menyukainya sampai akhirnya saya pun jatuh cinta padanya. Kecewa karena ternyata usaha saya sia-sia. Jika memang dia tidak ingin, seharusnya dari awal tidak usah gigih terhadap saya." Saat itu, jawaban yang diberikan mewakili perasaan yang ada pada saat itu juga. 

"Bagaimana apabila rumor itu benar? Yakin kamu tidak sakit hati?" pertanyaan selanjutnya. "Saya tidak menyalahinya, manusia mana yang tidak akan menggapai hal yang lebih baik kecuali saya. Itu juga mungkin karena karakter saya seorang loyalis, tidak akan berpaling kecuali memang sudah seharusnya. Siapa sih yang gak akan meraih hal yang lebih baik, lebih indah, lebih bisa dibanggakan. Alhamdullilah apabila rumor itu benar, berarti dia sudah menemukan yang sesuai." Jawaban dengan mewakilkan perasaan yang sama pada saat sebelumnya. 

Malam pun tiba, ternyata perasaan itu berubah. Tetapi tidak terlepas dari yang sudah dilontarkannya kepada lingkungan sekitarnya. Terdiam tertetegun memikirkan perasaan masa-masa itu yang seharusnya sudah hilang. Khayalan melanglang buana, sesak dirasa. Perasaan apa ini. Degup jantung terasa semakin kencang ketika bayangan itu semakin terlihat jelas. Terbuai dalam mimpi indah yang pernah terjadi, namun semakin terasa perih. Tidak disadari, air mata mulai berjatuhan. Entah apa yang harus diperbuat dengan perasaan ini, disyukurikah atau dihempaskan? 

Tiba-tiba tersenyum, tidak ada yang mengerti maksud dari senyuman itu. Kembali lah dia dengan perasaan awal. Namun, seiringnya waktu perasaan itu akan terus berubah.

Kehidupan Seharusnya

Kembalilah tersenyum
Senyuman itu sangat indah
Senyuman yang memikat
Mempesona seluruh jiwa dan raga

Istirahatlah sejenak
Lupakan semua,
Tenangkan dan lapangkan hatimu,
Hingga kegundahan pun sirna

Terimalah semuanya
Ikhlaskan diri, bukan mengalah
Dewasakan perilaku
Menyinari seluruh jalanmu

Jangan dipelihara
Rasa yang tak berguna
Amarah, dengki, benci,
sebaiknya mencinta dan menyayangi

Hiduplah sehidup mungkin selagi hidup
Tataplah kebahagiaan, palingkan kesengsaraan
Manfaatkan waktu, tiap detik adalah kesempatan
Tebarkan wibawa, berikan bantuan, raih ketenangan

 

Give Away

There are reason why people gave away their things, such as:

1. For the sake of sharing happiness

2. It is out of date

3. It is broken

4. Bored or no longer usable

5. Other random reasons.

Yes, things come and go. However, people kept forgetting that thing that they give away, can't be taken back. For example, saying harsh words can't be taken after it is being said, no matter how hard you want to take those words back. Those words will always be remembered through out the other people's life. If it does come back, it'll only come back partially. For example, giving out money for an exact amount, however the value of the money you have is bigger, automatically, you will ask or you will be given for a change. 

That's the philosophy of 'give away'. Then let me ask you about giving away love. Could it be back? The answers vary, depend on the situation and each actors. Somehow, I conclude there are two types of giving away love. The first one emphasizes giving away love as a sign to give happiness. If a person gives away his or her love to someone to give other happiness or to give their own self happiness. Could it be back? It either could be accepted and created a feedback or it could be rejected and returned (no feedback). However when it is returned, it won't be the same as before. Almost the same as the money change theory I mentioned previously.

Giving away things are easy to do, no varieties of feedback gained. However, ones must remember that giving away feelings is the opposite. No one could predict other human being feelings. So it might not come the way you expected it to be. Remind yourself, if you try to give out your feeling with a reason to share happiness or not, remember of the consequences :)

Dream

Last  night was the best dream ever. As I woke up, my tears were starting to fall. A dream that made me hope that it would become reality. I am longing for that situation. It's been a long time since I've had that warmth feeling.

Why did I have to wake up? For the first time, I regret of waking up. That dream made me speechless. As I woke up, I can't hold the sadness that I bear.

When will that time come? Why does it only appear in my dream once? As I woke up, the Adzan for Subuh was heard. While I prayed, the sadness wouldn't stop. I kept looking at her, wishing, how shoe would be as in my dream.

Best beautiful dream ever. Seeing her mad at me; smiled at me; told me to do every chores of her; everything she would always do before. Her straight hair blew through the wind. Her gaze toward me was full of love. 

I miss you Mom, is not that I don't accept of what you are now. But I miss those happy times when you were healthy. I want you to be healthy, feeling happy with us. I want you to be happy.

God, last night dream was so vivid that I thought that it was a reality. Why do you have to hurt me by giving me that dream? I was so happy for a moment, and then You take it back. How much more burden should I bear? I am no longer strong. I am falling apart, Allah. Not even anyone could hold me from falling apart. I beg for your help Allah, although, I know I'm not fit to ask anything from You.

Mama

Mama,
Those times you were always pushing me to do things that I felt uncomfortable with.
Those times you were always telling me of not to take care of my image all the time.
Those times you were always telling me not to sacrifice for others sometimes.

Mama,
Those times I didn't realize what were you trying to do to me.
Those times I always thought that your ways are wrong.
Those times I always object of what you told me to do.

But Mama,
Now I need you to do all those things you used to do.
Now I understand what it meant for me.
Now I know how to push myself forward.

Mama,
All this time, you were trying to tell me to be stronger.
All this time, you were supporting me whenever I'm down.
All this time, you knew ways to make me succeed.

Although sometimes the ways you told me don't fit my conscience,
But now, I understand why.
That is to make me to become a much better person than before.
You knew how weak I was, 
yet you try to tell me 
to fight for my own dreams;
to fight back the things that put me down;
to stand on my own feet.

 

Simple Words

"No matter how bad a person is, they would always want to be remembered as a good person." Simple words but yet reminded me. I would always wonder, why do I tend to forget my problems? Why do I act this way? What was the cause for all of this? The answer was in those simple words. No matter how bad a person would hurt me, in the end I would remember their good deeds toward me. Why? Because of them, I should be grateful. Without them, I would have never mature and would be stuck in my childish behavior. There are also another reason, people would say that, people tends to remember other people's bad deeds instead of the good deeds. Somehow, I realized that it was true. Therefore, I would like to reverse this proposition. How would it be like if we remember good deeds instead of bad deeds? Besides, bad deeds are only done a few times, while good deeds are done much more. However, people wouldn't realized those things. 

"Problems are not meant to be forgotten, but yet to be solved". Another simple words that remind me. It's not that I would directly forget all my problems without having them solved. It would make me as a total coward. I always try to confront all of my problems, so that in the end I wouldn't be curious of how things goes in the future. Then why do I forgot them? Piling up your memories with your problems, would only brings you pain of the past. What's the use of remembering it, if you already try to solve it as hard as you can. Of course, solving doesn't always mean that in the end it would lead you to the way of how you want it to be. Solving means, it could also go the opposite way of how you want it to be, as long it is for the better goods. That's why, no need to remember it right? And of course, by remembering it, it would bring up revenge and hatred towards the other parties, which I think is a great waste bothering yourself with those kind of things. You only live once, so either you live your life to the fullest with no regrets or you live your life badly with full of bad emotions. 

All of the problems I face, surely created the mature side of me. No matter how hard I try to reach my goals, there are limits such as respecting other people. Some of the people would object these limits when I said "live your life to the fullest". Well,it's true. It varies among people. But for me, hurting others are not a part of reaching my goals. My aim is to reach my hopes by considering others, so that it will become your individual success. It's not about individuality, it's about togetherness. The feeling of reaching something, without your selfishness has its own essence of pride.

Cover

Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too tired

Too tired of 

Hoping for something that will never come

Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too confused

Too confused of

The reasons I should cry for

Everyone told me to cry,

But I was too disappointed

Too disappointed 

At myself

Everyone thought I was strong,

But I was weak

Everyone thought I was firm,

But I was vulnerable

Everyone thought it was wrong,

But I think it was right

That moment

When you try to hold on

But you can't

No Regret

They told me to run from him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me not to trust him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me things about him,
I wouldn't listen.

They told me not to love him,
I completely wouldn't listen.

After he let me go,
They told me I was a fool.

After he let me go,
I couldn't run.

After he let me go,
I couldn't try.

After he let me go,
I still wouldn't listen.

They may call me a fool,
but they never know.

How this heart have no regrets.
The beautiful feeling, I may no longer have
But will always do treasure it. 

Love Was Gifted

Through her laughter,

Tears are seen.

Through her smile,

Sadness is felt.

The love that she'd sincerely given,

was returned at last.

The trust that she'd gave,

was taken for granted.

The moments that she'd felt,

was unworthy to be remembered. 

Once again, jailed by the silent.

Once again, captivated within the mourn.

Once again, happiness was not hers.

Once again, darkness falls around her.

Save her. Cheer her. Love her. 

And you'll see what she's worth. 

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 Sekian banyak tujuan yang tak tercapai, 
akhirnya hati ini memutuskan berlabuh disana.

Mampukah hati ini berlabuh disana? 
Kuatkah hati ini berlabuh disana?
Siapkah hati ini berlabuh disana?
Pantas kah hati ini berlabuh disana?

Teringat kembali senyuman indah itu,
tapi hati ini sudah berlabuh.
Ironis, berlabuhnya hati ini
Banyaknya tujuan lain yang menggoda. 

Hati telah berlabuh, dengan harapan.
Kedatangan diterima berisikan kehampaan. 
Namun, hati ini akan terus bertahan. 
Tak akan meninggalkannya

Hati ini terus berharap
Walau harus membunuh waktu
Walau tujuan lain menggoda,
tak akan hati ini menoleh.