Despicable Me

I think I've changed a lot
I don't know whether I've changed to someone better or not
But I do miss the moment where I could smile freely
Without anything to burden my smile

I became someone who ignores my surrounding
Solitary has been the path I choose to walk
It's the only thing that comforts me
Or that's the thing that I think will comfort me

I chose not to adapt that fast with others
I don't know why
But everywhere I go
I seemed not to fit in

I made myself busy
Escaping flashbacks that will hurt me again
But no matter how busy I am
I kept on remembering those remnants

I've changed a lot
It's even hard for me to focus on my studies
Although I try to keep my promise
Nothing will come interfere my studies

I smile to everyone, I do
But its not the smile I use to give
Maybe no one would realize
Cause I made it so

I'm used to it
Holding back tears onto my eyes
Looking up to the sky
So that it won't fall

What should I do?
I am an expert now
But it hurts really bad right now
I can't stand it

I am such a fool
I look so desperate
I hate this look of mine
I know what I want
But it's impossible to have 

Rindu

Kerinduan selalu mengiringi diriku

Dalam kehampaan, khayalku melanglang buana

Tiada henti kehadirannya selalu menghampiri

Tak disadari, kerinduan ini melelapkan diriku

Ku terbangun, berharap rindu itu menghilang

Aah, ternyata bukan mimpi

Rasa sakit ini masih menyapa hati

Kenangan yang terus hadir dalam angan

Penawar rindu tak kunjung hadir

Dalam diam, teriakan itu terdengar jelas

Apa daya, uluran tangan tak terlihat

Kelemahan yang tak mampu ku tunjukkan.