Dream

Last  night was the best dream ever. As I woke up, my tears were starting to fall. A dream that made me hope that it would become reality. I am longing for that situation. It's been a long time since I've had that warmth feeling.

Why did I have to wake up? For the first time, I regret of waking up. That dream made me speechless. As I woke up, I can't hold the sadness that I bear.

When will that time come? Why does it only appear in my dream once? As I woke up, the Adzan for Subuh was heard. While I prayed, the sadness wouldn't stop. I kept looking at her, wishing, how shoe would be as in my dream.

Best beautiful dream ever. Seeing her mad at me; smiled at me; told me to do every chores of her; everything she would always do before. Her straight hair blew through the wind. Her gaze toward me was full of love. 

I miss you Mom, is not that I don't accept of what you are now. But I miss those happy times when you were healthy. I want you to be healthy, feeling happy with us. I want you to be happy.

God, last night dream was so vivid that I thought that it was a reality. Why do you have to hurt me by giving me that dream? I was so happy for a moment, and then You take it back. How much more burden should I bear? I am no longer strong. I am falling apart, Allah. Not even anyone could hold me from falling apart. I beg for your help Allah, although, I know I'm not fit to ask anything from You.