Look around Kinabalu

After a week practicing two traditional dances from Indonesia that is Panji Semerang Dance from Bali  and Sinar Riau Dance from Riau; and a group working paper with the title 'Solutions of Ambalat's Dispute' finally, my friends and I flew over from Jakarta, Indonesia to Kinabalu, Sabah, Malaysia. Trust me, it is not a holiday thing to do, just a normal scientific visit to its top university, that is Universiti Malaya Sabah.

FIRST DAY

On this day, we planned to meet at two o'clock in Indonesia's International Airport that is Soekarno Hatta Airport. Since no one is going to drop me off there, so I used the public transportation from my house to this airport. We called it DAMRI here. It's a common use transportation, for people who doesn't want to go with their private transportation to go to this airport. Believe me, without traffic jam it took one and half hour to reach there. But every one who lives in Jakarta knew, traffic would always be the main problem. So probably, it took 2 hour more then to reach. 

My calculation was right. I got stuck with traffic jam in the middle of the trip. Yes, two hours it took for me to arrive to the airport. Luckily, there was only a few people that came before me. So, I wasn't that late. So we waited there, and the head of the delegation gave us our airplane tickets. Guess what, the plane was going to depart at half past five. So what did I do there? Wait and wait and wait. 

After we passed the immigration check, we finally came to the boarding session. Oh God, the plane is delayed until 8 or more. Another waiting session, God I was very hungry at that time. Unluckily, at that week, I didn't feel so well. As usual, gastric acid attack.

Next, finally time to depart. I sat in Seat 24 B, next to me, was the Chief of the International Relations Students Association, and the other side was one of my junior. However, the chief didn't want to sit on the window isle, so I exchanged seats with him. It was about 3 hours flight. I think, I'm not sure though. In the middle of the flight, one of the lecturer want to change seats with my junior. Because, my other junior next to the lecturer want to gossip around with her friend. So finally, they changed seats. 

Oh God, finally we arrived Kota Kinabalu at 11 pm there. One hour different time zone there. Of course, we were very hungry when we had reach there. The students and the lecturers of UMS greeted us warmly. But we put on that hungry face when we arrived, so you know how it goes. LOL. Luckily, the understood us. And took us to a local restaurant there. New taste of food. Our tongue felt strange, although it is next to Indonesia, but still the taste is very different. 

We reached our dormitory at one in the morning. Each and everyone of us, got different blocks, rooms, and places. So it was hard for us to contact each other. All of us felt awkward, because we had to wake up our new room mate at one in the morning. It was a very impolitely thing to do. 

In my room there was two of the UMS students and 2 from my campus. And luckily, the one that was in my room was one of the members of my working paper group. So we didn't directly went to sleep, instead we had to finish our paper work until five in the morning. Then we slept peacefully and feeling cold at the same time. 

To be continued....

That One Night

She always try to be the strongest person as she could be

She always try to be the most cherish person as she could be

However, 

That one night, suddenly tears came out from her eyes

she knew what she were crying for

the vacuum feeling that hurts the heart

She had this wish that has not been fulfilled yet

Day by day, she tried to convince and motivate herself

The right time will fulfilled her wish

That one night, she felt it

The feeling of incompleteness 

A wish that has not been fulfilled yet

She remains to be calm

She remains to think it will come

She remains to stay strong

She remains to stay happy

She remains to remind herself for not giving up

However,

that one night will always come

Creating tears in her eyes

Creating a mind that wishes to scream out loud

Creating wonders in her mind

She wants to know the feeling of her wish

She wants to feel it

Yet, her wishes will come at its right moment.

My 26th Sea Games Journey (Pt. 3)

THE RESULT

So, after three days, the result was out. I had to go back to GOR Soemantri Brojonegoro. Yes, at that time I'm still sick, in fact, I was even sicker than the day I had to do the test. Luckily, my friend was going there so I asked her a favor to look for my result. I waited for hours for the result, a mixture of feeling grew on me. It was a feeling between happy, scared, curious, angry, and weak all at one time. Cold sweat was coming out from my body. My head felt so heavy at that time. Finally, after couple of hours, a text message was sent to me saying that she couldn't see my name on the board because it wasn't placed in an alphabetical order. I was still anxious at that time, what result am I going to get. Did I failed? Or did I passed? 
After couple of minutes, another text message was sent to me saying I passed. Seeing that message, relieves all the feelings that came up in me. So I text-ed my friend  back, "How about you, did you pass?". Then she replied that she couldn't find her name but she will check it on the website. So I was wandering, there's a website? Why didn't I just opened the website then? So I ask my friend, what was the website? And she gave me the address. (www.psikoekselen.com)
So, I directly rebooted my laptop. Open one of my browsers, and browse the website above mentioned. The home page was browsed, then I clicked on one of its hyperlinks, the one that was written "Peserta VO Sea Games 2011" or the VO Sea Games 2011 Applicants. I clicked, it directed me to a page full of 868 names. I scrolled down the page and I still couldn't see my name listed in that page. So I scrolled up again, and checked back whether I missed my name in the list there. And yes I did, I missed out reading my name. There number 532 where my name is listed. Even if now at this moment I browsed back my name, I'm sure I would misread my name again. Because it is so full of names in that page. I really thank Allah for letting me passed this test. And of course, I wouldn't forget to browse my friend's name. Unluckily, my friend didn't pass the test, I feel so sad though. Because, she was the one who told me about this recruitment, but yet she was the one who didn't pass. After this information, all I had to do is wait until 1st August. At that date, the newest update will be put into the official sea games website. (www.seag2011.com). This is the website where we would see the next information about sea games 2011 recruitment. 
To be continued... 
 

My 26th Sea Games Journey (Pt. 2)

Okay, last time I was writing about my panic mode. The selection is in two days and I still don't know where the hell this place was located plus I was really sick at that time. I had a flu (this is not the main sickness I want to tell), so I drank a medicine where my stomach couldn't take it. So it gave me another complication after that, yes, that is GASTRIC ACID. The most sickness I hate ever. I vomited almost everyday because of this. 

Back to the main story, so the day had finally arrive. The selection started at 7, so I departed from my home at 5 in the morning. It was still dark at that time. I managed to know the route for the public transportation and the area for this selection test. And thadaaa I arrived exactly five minutes before seven. Jakarta's traffic jam is pretty hectic you know. Just for a reminder, my health is still not stable. 

Anyway, I searched out the green section, the zone which I was supposed to sit on. I was lost there, this stadium is confusing me. I didn't even know which door I should enter. And oh my God, I didn't brought my board to write on. Oh well, guess I have to buy a new one. 

After having a thirty minutes lost in the stadium, I finally found the green section. Lucky, the event didn't start on time (One of the Indonesian bad habits and I really hate this habit). I sat there in my seat then I took all of my equipments.

The test had finally started. It was an Intelligent Quotient test. This test takes hours and they even had an interview while at it. Oh my, my head starts to feel dizzy after two hours. I feel like I wanted to vomit. Argh, I can't stand it anymore. So what I did was do the test as fast as I could, then get out from this room. I didn't care whether I got accepted or not. All I could think of is I wanted to puke.

Finally, I did this test randomly. I didn't even concentrate on every questions it showed. So after couple of hours, I managed to finish this test. But stupidly, after that I went to a mini market and buy myself a Slurpee. So much for a sick person (do not copy this at home). After that, I started to feel sick again plus a brain freeze. But anyway, I'm free. No more test, I mean only for that moment. 

Now, the only thing to do is wait for the result. To be continued...

 

Faded Hope

Memories.. things that I would want to forget right now. I wish I really could. But it just won't happen. Those people gave me such big hopes about you and sadly I'm influenced by it. I used to never like you in the beginning, then those people came and gave me those hopes that made me fly in the sky. Then you started to show yourself, showing that those hopes that people had gave me were true. Why? I don't know. Was it just a bet? I don't know. 

From that moment, you made me fallen into you. I try to open up myself to you. I try to open my locked heart to you. Step by step, I really have fallen in love with you. But, the moment I had really open my heart for you, what did you do? Ignore me as if we didn't know each other. We're close, but then we became strangers. I thought I knew you, but you changed directly. Somehow as if you're trying to twist my heart around. 

Now, I regret that I had opened my heart again. I was so stupid to believe everything what I shouldn't believe. I was so stupid feeling the things I shouldn't feel. Now, I'm trying to stand strong in front of you. Trying to act that nothing has ever happen, yes it never did happen. Never did! Trying to ignore you but acting as if I'm not ignoring you. Because the more I see you, the more it hurts me. The more you smile at me, the more you're trying to kill me.  I will never know whether you did like, or whether you were just pretending. But now, I really don't want to find the answer. I don't want to wait for you anymore. Its time to move on. Its the time to find my future. For I have to stand strong. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of hearing impossible things. I'm tired when all of those people said to me I have to wait. Because I know, it's just too impossible. You're too mysterious for me. This moment you might gave me another hope, but then the next moment you will fade away again. You kept on doing this. I'm too tired. Now, I will try to fade all this hope. Trying to fade all my love for you although I knew I couldn't.

I hope the best for you only. I pray that someday you will get your happiness although you made me like this. Amin. 

My 26th Sea Games Journey (Pt. 1)

THE RECRUITMENT

It started of from my friend in campus. She said that the International Sea Games Organizing  Committee (INASOC) is having an open recruitment for the sea games event. So I opened the website that my friend had told me. I thought that I should give it a try because I think that this event is not held anually.  And, of course I thought that it would give me some life experiences, networks, and of course more friends. I saw three jobs listed there, and those jobs with its criteria are as follow:

Liaison Officer
Job Description:
• As the Personal Assistant, to help ease the VVIP and VIP guests SEA Games participants XXVI/2011
• As a liaison VVIP and VIP guests with the Committee INASOC
• Responsible for providing information and coordinating the VVIP and VIP guests with the Committee INASOC

Criteria:
• Male / Female
• Age 23 – 30 Years
• Concept wide (General Knowledge, Culture and the latest global news)
• Student Level End/Bachelor
• Interesting personality
• Possess the ability to communicate with both English (High Level) / France / Thailand
• Sufficiency (responds to all situations)

Volunteer
Job Description:
• Responsible for providing convenience to delegates to provide the necessary information and requirements
• Responsible for helping the committee executive, sports, venues, events and other activities during the SEA Games last XXVI/2011

Criteria:
• Male / Female
• Age 18 - 35 Years
• Concept wide (General Knowledge, Culture and the latest global news)
• High School Student Level End
• Interesting personality
• Possess the ability to communicate with both English
• Sufficiency (responds to all situations)

Work Force
Job Description:
• Responsible for helping the implementation of the game in various venues,
• Helps smooth transportation,
• Assist in the distribution of catering, cleaning and the waste places that require
• Responsive to all situations
• Ready to help in all conditions if necessary

Criteria:
• Male/Female
• At least educated junior school.

So after I saw all these three job-description, I chose the one that really fits my criteria, that is the volunteer section. Yes, the only one that really fits me. So, I filled in the online application they had in their website. Fill in my name, address, mobile number, university, position I chose, et cetera. After that, I had to wait for their next information about this recruitment. No information continuation at all, I even forgot that I filled in this application. 

Suddenly, after two months, I received a text message by an unknown number. It showed that I had been invited for Sea Games liaison officer or volunteer applicants selection on Wednesday, 13th July 2011 at GOR Soemantri Brodjonegoro, teenagers sports arena. Besides that, it showed my entry number, which section I should sit at, and what should I bring at that day. Seriously, I didn't know where this place was and which public transportation track should I ride. And this event will be held in two days. I had that panic mode of course. Directly after I had read my text message,  I opened my e-mail to see if there was a more complete information about this invitation. Yes, there it was although they didn't show the map of the destination I should go.  The same thing I saw in my text message. To be continued..

To Forget

Astaghfirullah al-adhim

Rasanya sakit sekali ya Allah ketika mengingatnya

Kenangan yang indah, namu cita asa itu belum tercapai

Dan sekarang, tepatnya pada saat ini,

Entah mengapa saya mengingatnya kembali,

Rasanya seperti tertusuk teramat dalam, 

Terobek serobek robeknya

Ingin sekali rasanya untuk menggapainya, 

Tapi aah, itu semua hanya angan saja, 

Mungkinkah? Aku tak tahu. 

Aku hanya bisa berdo'a saja. 

Tapi pada saat ini, saya menyesalinya.

Segala peristiwa manis nan indah itu

yang telah membuat aku salah sangka 

salah memahami

salah mengerti

Entah, 

Entah mengapa pada saat itu, 

Tanda itu terasa begitu nyata

Kini tanda itu menghilang begitu saja

Sungguh, aku tak suka dengan hal itu

Ku telah mencoba untuk melupakan

Namun, semakin kucoba, semakin ku ingat.

Kepala ini seakan ingin pecah,

Bersamaan dengan hati ini.

Aku ingin kembali seperti dulu,

dimana hanya ada kehampaan dan kekosongan.

Sekarang yang ada hanyalah rasa sakit

yang sedang menumpuk dari masa silam.