Grateful Thanks

4^th February 2009: Mom’s 49^th Birthday

It was my mom’s birthday at that time. My dad and I made a small party for her. I asked my sisters to give her a birthday letter on that day. I planned everything successfully and give her a surprised small birthday cake with one musical candle in it. I turned off the light and lit on the candle with a Happy Birthday music played on. She was very surprised of what I did to her.

After she blew the candle out, I read the letters from my sisters out loud in front of everyone because both of my sisters are not here with us. They are in university now. So we haven’t met for a long time. As I read the letters, tears fell out of my mom’s eyes and then I saw my dad crying out also but his tears was hidden. Reading the letters from my sister and saw my parents crying made me cry also. I read while I cry. It was the happiest moment of all.

This was the letter from my first sister who we haven’t met for couple of years:

A letter to my mom…

In this blissful day, I would like to say to my dear mother “Happy Birthday”. Although I’m not there to celebrate this special occasion, I would like to make this day special both to my mom and to me. Today is the day where other people take for granted but not for me, because in this day my mom is celebrating her big day although she claims that this day is just an ordinary day, but I know for sure this day means a lot for her.

Often people or my friends asked me a question, “How’s your mom like?” I would always answer with a sense of pride that I’m my mom’s daughter and I resemble her a lot and after that I would answer people by saying “my mom is the greatest mom ever, and I’m thankful to God that I was born as my mom’s daughter” I would also say “my mom is the coolest mom you will meet and have ever met, she acts like one of us, she gets along with all of my friends and she always be there as a friend, as a mentor, and as a mom. Not just to me and my sisters but also to everyone that she holds dear to her heart.” Another quality that I would mention about her is “she has a great sense of humor and she loves everyone in her family”.

After I mentioned all of these things about here, I started to get sad. The reasons why I get sad is because every time I mentioned her to my friends, I started to realize how much I miss her. Through the hard time that I’ve been through here, I always wished that my mom is here with me to give me strength that I need to overcome whatever obstacles that are blocking my path.

My mom is the strongest women that I have ever known, I did not mean this physically (even though she is strong physically) but I meant it mentally. Through the hard times that my family and I have been through, my mom is always there to give all of us strength that we need. She stands by my dad and supports him all the way to get us out of the problems that we are in. She always encourages to think positive and to believe that things happened for a reason and things are going to be a better for all of us.

In this special day I would love to express my deepest gratitude to her by saying thank you so much for everything you have done Dad, Dani, Karin and especially for me… I love you so much and words can’t even express how much that I love you. Happy birthday mama and I miss you always.

From your daughter

-adelia-

I saw my parents cry and it touches my heart. Deep inside my heart I felt as if I cannot make my mom proud of me. Seeing my entire sisters’ letter made me feel that I have not done anything that made my mom proud. Their words hypnotized the whole house to drench in tears. I became shy of myself seeing my card which I am going to read also for her later. I had wished that I could be like my sisters who wrote useful things unlike me.

Next, I read my second sister’s letter and that was:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA…

One night about two o’clock a ring tone was heard from my mobile. With laziness I took my phone to see who were the one that had bothered my peaceful night was. With eyes half opened, I saw a very long number without the name of the sender followed with a text message in it. I was surprised to see the content of that text message. A content that not more just asking for a gift from her daughter to her mother who was going to have a birthday in a couple of days. But the gift that she asked was a very hard thing to be fulfilled, and that was a letter. Not a regular, normal letter but a letter which my older sister always sent to her. A letter that drops tears out of your eyes which recalls our memory with mom.

My older sister is very smart to our out her heart through the words of heart, while my younger sister is smart to do actions that makes her happy. But I’m neither of them who are polite in doing their actions. Many times I spoke with my arrogant words and characters. Because of that, I’m asking forgiveness to mom who is celebrating God’s Gift.

With rain and cold water accompanying me, I press slightly with my laptop keyboard, thinking of what to write for the gift of what my mom wants. Finally, only this letter that can be thought by me. Not a letter that can pour out the sadness of heart or good actions of doing. Only words without soul that I could give.

I am a child that was born to earth with a happy feeling that cannot be said by words. I understand and see the worlds through my views, my hearts, and Mom’s character to it.

Mom, a simple word but it is very hard to be understood. The most beautiful gift in my life but it is always forgotten. An angel of earth but I always left it. Sometimes my mind asks, am I worth enough to feel this pleasure after what I had done to her?

Ah, how hypocrite I am thinking that I had made her happy. So hypocrite thinking with my own view that I had made her proud. Maybe I had gave her some proud on earth, but will proud on the heavens above will follow? Mama only you that can answer these questions that slices my heart.

In the most beautiful time of day that accompanies the changing of age, is mom celebrating it with happiness? Only that is in my mind right now. Although there is a big hope to be with her, but destiny talks different. I also didn’t care about it, because I knew with how far my sister and I am, mom got a new family there, a group of people that can fade her feeling of how she misses us for the time being.

Right now, the song “Thank God I found you” is playing from my laptop’s speaker. Hearing it made me to imagine in the quietest of night, what is mom doing right now? What is she doing? Is there any burden in her heart?

Thank God I found you, Thanks Allah I found her, the exact thing is Thanks Allah that I am her daughter. Thank you Mama for all that you give to me. Forgive me if I had shouted and get angry at you. Only one thing that I hope until now, that is be a good girl for Mom and Dad, so the doors of the heaven will open widely for Mom and Dad. A very hard hope to be known when is it going to happen. But I will always try for that.

Only a far distance prayer that I could do for my beloved Mama. With closing my eyes, I hope that an unlimited happiness will be given for my dearest Mom. I hope mom feels peacefulness not fidgety about us, your daughters Mama. I hope the way of your life becomes easy by Allah. May Allah always guide you in leading your life. Allah, give patience and steadfast for my happy and beloved mom in facing fidgety in her life. Protect her, give her health and age so she can see her grandchildren later. Allah, protect her and made her easy to find her wealth of life. Make her a good wife and mom. Ya Allah, forgive all of her sins and mistakes.

Only these words I could give to her. I hope Mama is happy and congratulation on celebrating your birthday, a gift from God. A gift that reminds us the Goodness of Allah and reminds us that with the increasing of ages decreases our days on earth. Happy Birthday my beloved mom. May Allah give mercy to you, Mama.

Love,

Dani

My heart was touched when I read my sisters letter. Finally, I read my birthday letter for my mom. I felt that it was not worth anymore, but I have to read it. My letter is the most simple letter and the letter was:

Happy Birthday, Compleanos Feliz, Selamat Ulang Tahun,Eid Milad Saiid, Alles Gute Zum Geburtstag Mama!!

Waiting for Mahgrib to come

Only to celebrate your birthday

In the way, I want to go home really fast

Only to celebrate your birthday

Even though my gift is not as expensive as a diamond

Even though my gift is not as a beautiful as the rainbow

But I do all of this just for you

Even though this happy time is not as long as the Nile River

But I do my best to make you happy today

Even though Mba Lia and Mba Dani is far,

Still they are close next to you to make you proud.

Happy Birthday my beloved mom,

Hope you are always happy , and always under the protection of Allah, Always success, and may Allah increase your age, and what you dream for is fulfilled.

I want to pour out more which cannot be expressed by words. Only this that I can do to make you happy Mama.

Love,

Karin

This is all that I can write to my mother. But the best thing for me was that she could be happy. Seeing her happy makes me happy.